Corridor 9

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately due to a circumstance that presented itself this past week. An old friend contacted me out of the blue. After pondering the situation for a few days I realized that the door on our friendship had closed, and while I do wish them well in their life, I wasn’t able to continue our friendship due to a number of circumstances.

However, my mind kept turning, which eventually led me to a lot of thinking. After looking back on my life, I’ve realized that I don’t really have too much contact with friends I have had in the past. There are a few that I keep in touch with, but only one I’ve known for more than 5 years.

I don’t know why, but this bothers me a bit.

I have memories of people that were really good friends, but nothing more than memories. No Christmas cards talking about how the year has been good to them, no pictures of families and children, not even an email address to drop a quick hello.

Call it laziness on my part, call it the military curse, call it whatever but it’s always been easy for me to up and leave. It’s always been easy to relocate and “forget” about the past, everything, and everyone who was associated with it.

Yea… there are quite a few people that are off limits as far as I’m concerned; people I simply can’t have any contact with. There are a number of times in my life that I wasn’t exactly walking the right path so to speak, so naturally these people are off limits. There are others who for various reasons I really don’t want to talk to.

But then there are some who I’d like to get back in touch with. Those who helped me grow, learn, and mentored me throughout some of the tough times in my life. But I’m wondering if it’s even worth it. I mean, I didn’t exactly hold up my end of the friendship bargain. I didn’t leave a forwarding address, didn’t show up at my roomies wedding, didn’t even leave a phone number I could be reached at. Is it really worth it anymore?

Anyway… maybe these are simply ramblings again. I’ve been known to do that at times.